I did it my way

When I used to work in newspapers, one of us always got landed with the end of year review – trawling through a year’s worth of news to create the highlights from the year. It’s not a task we would fight over. I’ve attempted to review my year of cycling and I didn’t hate this task, in fact it filled me with joy!

First snow ride in January at Rothiemurchus

The biggest challenge was choosing my favourite pictures from the hundreds I have taken this year. I was aiming to pick 12 pictures, I just couldn’t do it. So please forgive my self-indulgent photo splurge. This is my longest ever blog, so thanks for lasting the distance with me. For me every picture I’ve taken represents a captured moment of joy and awe in my life. To anyone else, it might look like I’ve taken pictures of the same thing over and over again. To me, they’re not the same. Each moment is a unique step towards a different changed version of me.

Muddy start in January

Something that did not surprise me when I was scanning through my pictures was how often I was wearing my rain jacket. I couldn’t get a definitive number, but I read that there were approximately 175 days of rain in most part of Scotland, 250 days in the highlands, but my region came out as the second highest rainfall so I think we are somewhere in the middle of that, pretty damn wet anyway. It does make me question how I managed to keep going every day, given that so many of my rides were in the rain.

First bike-packing trip in February

I absolutely loved my wee solo bike-packing trip in February. I felt like a real adventurer – strong and self-sufficient. I’d love to do more of this, if my circumstances change to free up some space for overnight trips. Yes it rained, but it was still awesome and I really appreciated investing in some good quality gear to keep me warm and dry. I also feel so lucky to live in Scotland where we still have right to roam and wild camp in so many beautiful places.

Sunrise with the Dumbarton mermaid in February

I am so lucky to have great cycle paths near me and the River Clyde on my doorstep for my daily rides.

A sea of daffodils in March

I attempted my first metric century in March, which turned into my longest ride of the year – 70 miles! It was epic and I was so proud of myself. Biggest lesson is to take my headphones on such a long ride as I started to go a bit loopy and talk to myself. I remember that ride was almost ruined by the big dogs on extendible leads that ran out in front of me. I really love dogs, but I still think a lot of owners use shared paths in an irresponsible way and that incident definately made me more wary.

Inchinnan sunset in March

March was also the month I had covid, so had to cycle indoors for some days. After dodging the dreaded virus for 2 years I was determined it wasn’t going to take my challenge away from me. This was also the month when my beloved gravel bike Ruby came into my life. I love her. That is all.

Beautiful blossoms trees in Helensburgh in April

I cycled 500 miles throughout April for Diabetes UK. Throughout the year I did a mixture of long and short rides, but these challenge months for charity were blooming hard work. I often had to cycle twice in a day to make up the miles and there was no space for slacking. I think it averages out at 16.3 miles a day. That is a lot and it is knackering. I remember the first time I did this last year, I felt like I had broken my body and didn’t cycle for two months afterwards. This year, I was fitter and it was a little easier, but it still stretched me.

Gourock in April

I love cycling by the river Clyde, which runs through the heart of Scotland. Along the shoreline in Inverclyde there are some spectacular views, but it’s often a brutal ride exposed to all the elements.

Shetland isles in April

I got to visit Shetland in April for work and me and a colleague hired some less than brilliant bikes, but I still got a few miles in. We both cycle frequently but we could not make those bikes go fast, plenty of laughs.

Isle of Ghiga in May

A wonderful trip with a dear friend to the stunning Isle of Ghiga in May was definately a highlight. The island is only six miles long, but I loved my wee cycles over there.

Loving all the summer gear from Stolen Goat that I finally got to wear in May

The sun came out in May, it’s one of the better months in Scotland. This meant I had to get over my fear of cycling shorts. Well not fear exactly, but getting over that weird feeling that I’ve crapped in my pants. On those longer rides I was so grateful for the padding and now I’m definately a convert.

The Colinton tunnel, Edinburgh in May

I also clocked up another century ride in May, cycling from west to east to the Colinton tunnel in Edinburgh. This is definately on the list again for 2023.

A regular route through Balloch Park in June

Like many cyclists I fell foul of a few accidents over the year, mainly skinned knees and elbows. In June I got whacked in the face by a tree branch, sporting an attractive scabby nose for a few days. Cycling is a messy business – there’s mud and oil and blood and sweat and sometimes tears. It’s all part of fun. June was also the month my bike took a dive into a river and I jumped in to save her, oh what an adventure that was. And there’s no pictures because my phone ended up at the bottom of the river.

Wild yellow iris by Loch Lomond in June

I loved seeing Scotland’s wildflowers bloom, changing through the seasons.

Buckingham Palace, London in July

I went to London for work in July and made the long journey by train with Ruby. It was not the easiest journey, fully loaded with panniers and I scraped my legs numerous times getting the bike on and off trains. I was slightly terrified at the thought of cycling in such a busy city, but the cycling super highways and bike infrastructure down there is awesome. I loved cycling past the epic landmarks and it made my excited about taking part in the 2023 Ride the Night London challenge.

Scottish highlands sunrise over Cromarty in July
John O’Groats legendary signpost

Riding around John O’Groats in July was awesome. The scenery in this part of Scotland is breath-taking. Maybe one day I will do the whole of LEJOG, you just never know what you are capable of until you try.

Birth of the baby folding bike Nemo in August – waiting for the Renfrew ferry to cross the River Clyde

The cyclist’s motto for how many bikes you need is easily calculated as n+1 (n=the number of bikes you already have). Basically there’s always space in the stable for another steed.

Classic log pile pic on the Great Glen Way, Scottish Highlands in August
Braving the midges on the Great Glen Way

I finally completed all three parts of the Great Glen Way in August. I loved every single minute of this epic route. It was damn hilly but worth it for the breath-taking views and the ultimate solitude of riding through the ancient forests. It’s impossible to avoid the Scottish curse of the midge, but I’d rather look ridiculous than get eaten alive. The midge smoker contraption is a winner.

Birthday ride up Loch Lomond in September
The high road – the sun shines bright on Loch Lomond

I turned 50 in September and writing this review reminds me of one of the main reasons I started this challenge. I wanted to mark my 50 years on earth by doing something epic for myself. I certainly feel like it has been. My birthday ride was 50 miles for 50 years on one my favourite routes along the bonnie bonnie banks of Loch Lomond.

Camping in a bell tent in Cornwall in September

The birthday celebrations went on all month and I had the most wonderful trip to Cornwall to stay with another dear friend, and another adventure by train for Ruby. We had lots of mini-adventures and even rode out to Land’s End – another 50 miles on a super hilly route.

Gwithian cliffs in Cornwall
Land’s End legendary signpost, Cornwall, England

October was filled with more long rides to reach my goal of 500 miles again for Diabetes UK. The weather was much worse than in April but I still managed my target.

500 miles in October for Diabetes UK
More wet weather in October

This is my favourite time of year with the trees changing colour. There’s a richness to everything with the glorious autumn reds and golds and the rain makes everything green and lush.

Autumn rides in October

November was a month of fairly hideous weather with the odd day of sunshine. I think I was getting really exhausted, especially after my push to do 500 miles in October.

Gravelfoyle up in Aberfoyle in November

Work was busy, there was less daylight and I found it really challenging to get out. I thought the challenge would get easier towards the end, but it actually got harder. But I did finally manage to ride the epic forest paths up at Gravelfoyle.

Nemo rides beside the Clyde in November
Bare trees in Port Glasgow in November

The final month came with its own challenges. I had organised a holiday abroad with my oldest friend. We missed out on her 50th birthday celebrations during covid so this was our re-organised holiday. I couldn’t take my bike, so I ended up cycling in the gym every day. It was the most chilling out I’ve ever done on a holiday and I think I really needed it.

Egypt sunrise in November

I did manage to hire a super crappy bike in Egypt. I think it had ridden across the desert and then been sitting in the guy’s back garden for years. The chain kept falling off and I got about a mile, when I heard a pack of what sounded like wild dogs in the distance. I turned tail and made that bike get me back safe.

Crazy little ride in Egypt

I finished my year of cycling with 22 miles up Loch Lomondside. With temperatures in minus figures, I could barely feel my feet by the end of the ride.

Luss, Loch Lomond in December

But my heart was full and definately had a wee tear in my eye as I cycled my last mile of 2022. I may never have another year like this in my life. I will never forget what it has taught me about myself. And I am full of gratitude for everyone who has been by my side cheering me on, in real life and virtually. Now, 2023, let’s be having you 😁

Firkin Point, Loch Lomond – 31 December 2022 – 4,744 miles total for the year
If it’s not on Strava, it didn’t happen 🤣

Easy Rider

Sometimes it’s not about the miles, sometimes it’s about enjoying the view and the ride that got you there, no matter how long or short.

I took Ruby wild camping on the tiny Scottish island of Ghiga. It was never going to be about clocking up the miles because it’s only six miles long. So a round trip of the island is just 12 miles. It was all about the glorious beauty in this place, the peacefulness, the change in pace, the incredible landscape and coastal views. It was all about slowing down instead of beating personal bests. And it was magical.

I have visited many Scottish islands, but I experienced something different in this wonderful place – a sense of containment. Something about the smallness of it, something about being able to cycle tip to tip in less than an hour, something about being boundaried by water, all led to this contained feeling.

Containment is both physical and psychological. And it changes our brain chemistry. Being physically held or hugged makes us feel contained. Structure makes us feel contained. Being given a space where we can let ourselves be held emotionally makes us feel contained. It’s something that all therapists try to create for clients. In a safe contained space, we are more free to explore difficult things. Our entire nervous system has the chance to calm down when we feel contained and safe. That also means we can take time to reflect on things more deeply and go beyond the surface survival state.

It’s hard to get lost on a tiny island. Very quickly you get the lay of the land, you have your bearings and this also fast-tracks that sense of safety. I know exactly where I am, so it’s safe to explore.

My one-woman tent is also tiny, so maybe that added to my feeling of being contained. Even with the wind howling around the tent in the middle of the night, I had a sense of calm.

It was fun and refreshing to step away from my daily cycle routine, which often involves cramming a cycle around work and other commitments. Sometimes I have to plan carefully to make sure I’ve left some part of the day free for cycling. Sometimes I’m spinning as fast as I can to get it done. This was different. Rides were leisurely, they were not stuffed into the day, the day revolved around them. I had nowhere to be and nothing else in particular to do. It was a dream-like state where time took on a different quality. It was blissful.

My daily cycle challenge has taken on a different feel this month. It has its own rhythm, it’s becoming more of a habit, a stable daily nutrition for me. That doesn’t mean it’s not still difficult at times. Prioritising the time is the most challenging bit. Letting other things go to make space and time for this.

This is also the middle part, so it’s a bit less exciting. There was excitement at the beginning and I’m guessing there will be much excitement as day 365 approaches. For now I will continue to settle into this daily rhythm of an easy rider.

Wild at heart

I had the best fun ever on my first solo bike-packing trip. Okay so I only went a few miles down the road, but it was still a wild adventure!

It is always sensible to test out all your gear on a short trip, before you find out the hard way that there’s something wrong with your tent or your mat is like sleeping on plywood. I was still out in the woods and it was flipping epic.

I have done quite a bit of wild camping, but never been quite as alone as I was this time. It was awesome but weird. Time seems to take on a different quality when you are completely alone and just focused on sustaining yourself. It feels like you are moving in slow motion, everything needs to be done so carefully.

You have a limited amount of water, for example, so you can’t afford to spill a drop. You have one meal with you, so you don’t want to drop it. You don’t want to lose anything vital in the grass, in the dark, in the rain. Definately don’t want to lose your glasses and be stumbling about like Thelma in Scooby Doo. So you take care, moving methodically from one task to the next.

That’s not my natural way of being, so I had to make myself slow right down.

And also, anyone who has ever been away with me will know I struggle to “pack light”. I’m also a hoarder by nature so packing for a bike trip was super challenging. All I can say is, the one essential, if you forget everything else, is dry socks and knickers in a dry bag.

Something that several people commented on was whether or not I felt safe, or was actually safe. Especially as a…you know… woman. I’m inclined to roll my eyes a bit, but I get it. As a psychologist I have been exposed to every kind of variation of human behaviour and I know the world has many humans with strange and disturbing motivations. However, I also know that victimology and criminal psychology tells us that most women are hurt or killed by those they live with, not by mythical psychos wandering the woods in the peeing rain, looking for victims.

Of course I don’t want to turn into a Sunday newspaper headline. So I am prepared, making sure the ITOH (Incredibly Tolerant Other Half) knows where I am. So I am somewhat sensible, but also I want to live wild and have freedom in my choices, not to be driven by fear.

There’s so much happening in the world to be afraid of, I don’t believe having adventures should be one of those things. I’d rather die falling off a mountain, than being in a car crash, shot or beaten to death.

What else did people ask me? Weren’t you scared? Yes, a little but that’s part of the thrill. Weren’t you cold? No, a mate sold me a super cosy lightweight sleeping bag. And super advantage to camping in Scotland this time of year, is NO midges! Weren’t you wet? No, I bought a decent tent and put it up properly. Weren’t you bored? Hardly! I took my knitting. Weren’t you hungry? No, I had spam. And Turkish delight.

So go have an adventure! I can’t wait until the next time and the chance to go a bit further and stay longer. The sound of rain on a tiny tent, the wind howling, the owls hooting, the birds waking you in the morning with their songs. I didn’t even need sunshine. It was freakin epic.